12/12/2016

Pregnancy Update (Alternate Title: I Feel Old)



My bump/seat - this was taken today, 28wks

Me, at about 20 weeks.
 

I'm 28 weeks pregnant. I feel like I'm about 38 weeks pregnant. Has anyone else experienced this?!

I've always said, "You're only as young as you feel!" And I truly meant it! I can't stand it when people complain about "being old."

 About 18wks.


Well.

Here I am, 36 years old and half-way through my 4th (technically 6th) pregnancy, and man, do I feel old.

My pelvic bone hurts. My feet hurt. BAD. My abdominal muscles ache most of the time.

I have varicose veins, people! TMI? Too bad. If I have to deal with it, so do you if you want to be my friend. And who knew they hurt this bad?!

I cry at the drop of a hat, and if you know me in real life, you know I am not a crier. 

Why didn't any of you tell me? Ok, maybe a few of you did.. but why didn't I listen?!?  

I'll tell you why.

Because even though pregnancy has never been my favorite thing--I'm not one of those women--and a lot of places hurt that I never knew could hurt and I've gained more weight than EVER with this pregnancy...


And even though I know there are many, many more sleepless nights ahead, and hormone changes, and body changes...

I know that at the glorious, wonderful end...

I will hold a brand new, precious, beautiful, unique, perfect-in-my-eyes baby and every single ache, pain, tear and annoyance will be more than worth it.


I cannot wait to meet this little person growing inside of me. It's always a miracle, isn't it? The more children I have, the more I realize what little miracles every child is. I know that this baby girl inside me will bring a new and refreshing dynamic to this family, just like each of our other children has. I can't imagine our lives without any of them. And after she is born, I won't be able to imagine life without her.


So, yes, pregnancy stinks out loud.

But after all is said and done, I'd do it again in a heartbeat.